You're almost a month old already!

Dear Noah,

I'm planning on keeping this blog to write all the amazing things down that you do over the course of the next few years. I don't want to forget anything about my little miracle and this is something I can go back and read or share with you when you're older. I love you. I can't believe it's almost been a whole month since I had you. You've already done so much in that month and every day I thank God that I have you in my life. When I was pregnant with you, I knew I would love you, but never knew how strong and amazing that love would be until you were born. You are the perfect baby. Some things that are remarkable about that first month:

• The minute I saw them take you over to the warmer I started to cry. I couldn't believe you were finally here. When I saw daddy hold you for the first time it was the most amazing thing. 
• The first time I got to hold you in my arms. I was initially really upset because I had to have a c-section and wait almost 2 hours to hold you. But the minute they gave me to you and I nursed you for the first time, I completely forgot all of that and just looked at you in amazement.
• This time with you and daddy as a family, during our first weeks together, has been simply awesome. It's brought a whole new love to my marriage with Jesse. Not only do I know him as an amazing husband, but now I know him as an amazing father. We've had our moments that are hard as we try to figure things out, like when you have "open-air accidents" all over your nursery or when we tried to give you a bath for the first time, or the horrible night I fell with you on the way to the creamery (I want to forget about that one and your first awful trip to the ER. Thank GOD you were ok!). 
• The minute you opened your eyes and looked up at me for the first time was simply one of the best minutes in my life. I will never forget it.
• The happy look you get now when I talk to you. It's almost like you understand my words. You love when I say "I love you." and "God bless you." 
• You hate having your diaper changed but I love how much comfort you get when I pick you up after I change you. 
• How peaceful you look when you sleep. You're sleeping right now in your Boppy lounger while I write this and I can't stop looking at how adorable you are and the little faces you are making while you sleep.
• I never knew how much I'd love to breastfeed you. It's a special thing that we share with each other and it's such a miracle that I can do it. I also love how relaxed you are after you eat and how you sometimes fall asleep so soundly in my arms.
• I love how you reach up to me when you're on the changing table and how you are starting to hug my shoulder when I'm holding you.
• Thank you for sitting in your monkey chair when I take showers in the morning and get ready. 
• When you're awake and alert, you always look like you're deep in thought.
• When you are sleeping so peacefully in the car.
• Your superman arms when you're laying on the changing table. 
• Your smiles in your sleep and when I talk to you. The little motions you make with your mouth when you're sleeping. YOU in general!
• The way your legs pull up when I lift you out of the car seat or up from when you've taken a nap.
• The way you like to flip people the bird
• The meh noise you make when you cry
• Things we call you right now: Squishy face, squishy, Noah bear, Noah Balboa, Buddy

I love you Noah! I'm so happy to be your mommy.